Hallucinatory poetry "Brightness"

Her face is bright like a light-bulb,
And she's analytical with her hands.

The definition of schizophrenia,
Is implying I'm dumb like I'm not sure whether it's real,

I'm mad, because I threw my laptop across the floor,
Like I hold on to the notes of a piano piece.
And though I'm doing my daily business
Of analyzing poetry,

When the psychiatrist hears what I have to say,
It's like my love had swallowed a bullet,

because She knew what it really meant,
Where the poem says, "..put a bullet inside his head."

But without my knowing,
She takes pills instead.